wow... I need some air....
Life feels as if it's so busy I've barely the time to breathe right now.
I wonder, often, what I've gotten myself into. Am I taking on too much? Is this really what I want? Does this change who I am?? I have a TON going through my brain... ugh it's hard to keep the mind quiet. Sounds like a rebellion going on up there tonight... Soo much turmoil.
Well tomorrow will prove to be yet another SUPER EFFIN LONG day!!! And not the good kinda long... the crappy kinda long... ugh... maybe I can find me some good kinda long afterwards... HA HA!
Okay so officially, The Mind has checked out for the evening. All that's left are the smutty chickens we are!! Heehee... ooh time to get some WallBanger on... just cos I love that story... anyone wanna read... it's REALLY REALLY GOOD.... mmmm WallBanger...
Night Chickens!!
Monday, December 6, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Family Tradition
Every where has tradition. Every culture carries their own traditions and traditions that have been transferred from other cultures. Like Christmas. Christmas is a tradition that dates back so far I can't actually remember when the first appearance of St. Nick was. The furthest I can remember is Holland in the 1200 I think.
(that project was from 18 years ago, at least I remember that part of it). Now anyone that knows me, knows how big I am into certain traditions. Well this weekend is a 21 year tradition we've had. It's a blast for the most part, although this year some of it seems to be a little uncomfortable. For the most part the kids had a blast and were featured on TV several times. (that last part was kinda weird though, if you see me, yes I did look REALLY REALLY rough! ha!) My favorite hotel was okay although I love their bathrooms. Trust me I shoulda taken a damn picture of the bloody thing, I swear it's bigger than my entire flat!!! . . . and their garden tubs.... let's just say I would not complain about life if I had a tub like that in my flat. *le sigh*
So now I'm sittin up at the lake enjoying the radio with my Daddy. And yes he's old enough that the radio and a deck of cards (or a few) is Sunday entertainment. My Daddy. He's older than Moses (his words, not mine), but he's one of the most crotchety yet gentle person I've ever met. The dogs love him (although my Lily Pad is the only animal that has ever bit him). He can talk about almost anything. He's just a wonderful man. And in all honesty it's quiet times like this that I really savor with him. He's like a gentle stream in the woods. He may have a few boulders for a bit of a rocky ride but most of the time he's just this peaceful flow. He's some place you can sit calmly and quietly next to and just be. Helps clear out all the clutter the mind can create. He's really under appreciated for his magical power, but he really has one. My Daddy can make ANYTHING simple. It's a simple yes or no. You want something or you don't. Life is just simple. Dogs are great company. A movie or biography will keep him occupied. He's eager to understand things, but it's not necessary for him to live his life. He's a wonderful man.
I've had alot of troubles in my life and really the day I decided to move in with my Daddy (as temporary as it was) I saw a clearer idea of life. It doesn't have to be a rat race everyday for the best job or best apartment or the most money. As long as you have a way around, a place to sleep, some food in your belly, and a dog for some company anything else is just an added bonus. We should all be so lucky to live in such simplicity.
If you ever wonder why I act or do some of the things I do, take a look at my parents. Separately. I've been lucky enough to have spent time with them each individually. And that's just them. Some habits are good some habits are bad but I've learned almost everything about my personality from them and being observant of myself. It was my Daddy that allowed me to be comfortable with just me. And Lily of course helped on that too.
So yeah I guess that's about all I have to share today. Tomorrow I'll be back to the grind, hopefully today's clarity won't escape too quickly.
Here's hoping y'all find some calm space today.
(that project was from 18 years ago, at least I remember that part of it). Now anyone that knows me, knows how big I am into certain traditions. Well this weekend is a 21 year tradition we've had. It's a blast for the most part, although this year some of it seems to be a little uncomfortable. For the most part the kids had a blast and were featured on TV several times. (that last part was kinda weird though, if you see me, yes I did look REALLY REALLY rough! ha!) My favorite hotel was okay although I love their bathrooms. Trust me I shoulda taken a damn picture of the bloody thing, I swear it's bigger than my entire flat!!! . . . and their garden tubs.... let's just say I would not complain about life if I had a tub like that in my flat. *le sigh*
So now I'm sittin up at the lake enjoying the radio with my Daddy. And yes he's old enough that the radio and a deck of cards (or a few) is Sunday entertainment. My Daddy. He's older than Moses (his words, not mine), but he's one of the most crotchety yet gentle person I've ever met. The dogs love him (although my Lily Pad is the only animal that has ever bit him). He can talk about almost anything. He's just a wonderful man. And in all honesty it's quiet times like this that I really savor with him. He's like a gentle stream in the woods. He may have a few boulders for a bit of a rocky ride but most of the time he's just this peaceful flow. He's some place you can sit calmly and quietly next to and just be. Helps clear out all the clutter the mind can create. He's really under appreciated for his magical power, but he really has one. My Daddy can make ANYTHING simple. It's a simple yes or no. You want something or you don't. Life is just simple. Dogs are great company. A movie or biography will keep him occupied. He's eager to understand things, but it's not necessary for him to live his life. He's a wonderful man.
I've had alot of troubles in my life and really the day I decided to move in with my Daddy (as temporary as it was) I saw a clearer idea of life. It doesn't have to be a rat race everyday for the best job or best apartment or the most money. As long as you have a way around, a place to sleep, some food in your belly, and a dog for some company anything else is just an added bonus. We should all be so lucky to live in such simplicity.
If you ever wonder why I act or do some of the things I do, take a look at my parents. Separately. I've been lucky enough to have spent time with them each individually. And that's just them. Some habits are good some habits are bad but I've learned almost everything about my personality from them and being observant of myself. It was my Daddy that allowed me to be comfortable with just me. And Lily of course helped on that too.
So yeah I guess that's about all I have to share today. Tomorrow I'll be back to the grind, hopefully today's clarity won't escape too quickly.
Here's hoping y'all find some calm space today.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
What Wild and Wooly Mammoth Got You?!?!
WHOA! I totally got my first comment and I'm a little stoked about it, not gonna lie... :) Thanks luvy!!!
So had a date tonight... I know crazy right? An actual date. So I'm sitting there waiting since we are meeting at the RMango. 20 mins goes by and I realize I'm still waiting. I'm actually sitting in a frozen yogurt place when it's freezing bollocks outside, waiting on a man that NEVER showed.. What the heck man?!?! Now I'm no Brazillian Bombshell, but dude, I'm cute and I'm waiting on a man?!? sheesh!! I mean, who bugs the tar outta someone ALL BLOODY DAY and then DOESN'T show for a frozen yogurt date?!? And who the hell wants to eat bloody frozen yogurt in DECEMBER?!?! C'mon man!!!
Needless to say I came home shortly after that little brain tirade in the middle of the shop... luckily I didn't cause an outward scene, it was definitely an inward scene... all upstairs in the brain basement, only cos I didn't want to freak anyone out, that was a really cute store and I totally want to go back sometime.... HOPEFULLY WITH A DATE THAT WON'T STAND ME UP!!!!
SHEESH!!!
Speaking of standing...
I have a bloody peeper/creeper I think.
Situation:
I'm layin in bed trying to read before I go to sleep (me read in bed?!? NEVER!!! Ha, betcha you can guess what I was reading tooo hahaha) when I hear the leaves outside my window crunching.
*Now here's a little tidbit on my place. I am on the first floor and have one window and one door in my place. The window is in my bedroom and points to the back of the house where there is a 9 ft wide space between the house and the neighbors backyard/fence. Now in this space there is nothing but foliage and well foliage. And TONS of dead leaves. So when anyone walks behind the house, I can hear them quite well....*
So I am hearing the leaves crunch and I sneak over to the window to just see if I can catch a glimpse of who is out there. I look through the blinds and see noone, so I go and lay back down. After about another 10-15 mins I'm actually falling asleep while reading when I hear the leaves again except this time it's softer and a bit more spaced out, like someone is intentionally trying not to make noise. Instead of getting up, I laid there and watched the shadow of a man in my blinds. He was there ALL NIGHT... and when I say that I literally mean ALL BLOODY NIGHT!!!
After about 2 hours I realized he was still there I was not hallucinating so I crawled with my phone into the bathroom to call town PD. (Non-emergency of course) So talking to an operator and get this she tells me "well if he hasn't approached and he can't actually see in, I' could send a car but they can't really do anything. I would suggest curtains."
ARE YOU EFFING KIDDING ME?!?!?! LIKE REALLY?!?! YOU ARE KIDDING ME WITH THIS SHIT RIGHT?!?!
But NOOOOOOOO she wasn't kidding. Needless to say I was too petrified to actually go out my front door and confront whatever low life was hanging out back there all night, so I did not sleep a wink all night. I literally laid on my bed clutching my phone for dear life watching this guy's shadow all night. Apparently he got better at making less noise cos I barely heard him shuffling around back there. (PS Neighbor dogs didn't bark hardly at all at him but they don't shut the EFF up now?!? stupid dogs!!) Nini suspects the neighbor dogs know said person but really that's just crazy they should be killer attack Kujos that take out EVERYONE... that would be my Lily... Dude... I need my girl. I might pick her up this weekend. I don't think I (or my job) can handle another sleepless night like that..... And Lord knows if I get murdered in my place, only 7 people have ever been in my apartment so here's hoping one of them knows to break down my door and find me. SHEESH!!
On to happier thoughts....
It's snowing!!!!! Just not in my part of the universe *sad face* I miss snow. And I love wearing my cold weather outfits... they are kinda cute! ;)
Oh on another note:
Found myself another Early Christmas present....
YUM!!!! *bats eyes dreamily at Jordan Catalano*
Okay... happy thoughts cloud my mind. I'm gonna go read and pass out....
"A lover's eyes will gaze an eagle blind;
A lover's ear will hear the lowest sound...
...Love's tongue proves dainty Bacchus gross in taste:
For valour, is not Love a Hercules,
Still climbing trees in the Hesperides?
Subtle as Sphinx; as sweet and musical
As bright Apollo's lute, strung with his hair:
And when Love speaks, the voice of all the gods
Makes heaven drowsy with the harmony." Love's Labour's Lost (Act IV. Scene iii)
A lover's ear will hear the lowest sound...
...Love's tongue proves dainty Bacchus gross in taste:
For valour, is not Love a Hercules,
Still climbing trees in the Hesperides?
Subtle as Sphinx; as sweet and musical
As bright Apollo's lute, strung with his hair:
And when Love speaks, the voice of all the gods
Makes heaven drowsy with the harmony." Love's Labour's Lost (Act IV. Scene iii)
(Weight of Words was updated!!! SQUEE!! soooo excited!!!)
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