First week of school

I feel overwhelmed and underwhelmed all at the same time. My classes intimidate me although I don't think they should. I feel lost and discombobulated. I don't know which way to go...

At least there is a cute Aussie exchange student around to guide me....

Hyde Park

Roses.

The roses are so fragrant. Even this late in the year. The perfume is what drew me in. I was walking towards the bandstand from Queen Elizabeth's Gate and the softest scent drew me to the left. It is a medley of amorous odors. From the tea roses to the antiques, the smell can't be captured by words. It lightens the heart and fogs the mind. I now understand what chemist are attempting to replicate in perfume bottles. I would hoped to be bathed in this scent forever. It's comforting, it's warm, it's home.

Camden

Camden Town/Lock/Market is brilliant!!!

The sights, smells, sounds, and shopping!!!

It's all so captivating!

I would buy more if I were just a train ride home. There are music shops, dress stalls, food stands, accessory walls, and crates full of records to pick through. This place is fantastic!

You can't walk 5 steps without a whole new slew of sensory stimulation. The community has this feeling of freedom and peace. It's as if the works had turned its back on these people but Camden has given them a haven to live and be free.

It's a wonder the rest of the world hasn't found a since of community like this.. I don't feel judgement or persecution. I feel love and acceptance, even as an American.

I'm content here. I'm confident here. I'm already looking forward to my next visit.


I'll note, I've never had Ethiopian food but after walking past that stall, I can't wait to try it!!

And the Stables are BRILLIANT!!!!!

Crystal Palace Dinosaurs

It's been a wicked good trip. Spending time with my two favorite kids and my oldest and closest friends has been amazing so far.

I can't help but imagining my life in London. Where would I live? What would I do? There are just so many possibilities. It makes me think about next year.

I'm to graduate in a little under a year. What happens then? I barely write as is, how am I hoping to be published?!?!? Everything feels...

Unstable.

I wonder what lies ahead for me. I know what I want, but am I really willing to achieve my goals? Do I have the courage to live my dreams? Where do I find my bravery? My strength?

It isn't daring to dream, it's daring to achieve those dreams.

Soaring High

The sky is beautiful tonight. I'm catching a rare view from up here.
The moon is half and it's warm golden reflection bounces off the rivers of Newfoundland.
Even with the cloud cover that now obscures the mass of Greenland and the ocean's surface, the glow of the moon gives the sky a erethral ambiance.

I'm mesmerised by the possibilities. Maybe this trip, I'll find what I am looking for.

*Vent* NSFW Presumptions

Here's my deal.

I logged onto a particular website and I made a list of what I am sexually interested in. I chose to participate in an alternative lifestyle..

BUT

That does not mean that I am to be disrespected. That does not mean that I don't expect you to try.

I may be a bit of a "kink" but I am definitely old fashioned. You will have to actually ask me out. You will have to actually ASK for my number. And you DO NOT get to assume that you know me simply because I answered a few things on a website.

C'mon people!!! There is an art to dating. If you do not want to put forth the effort, then what are you doing? This is not a "hook up" site. For if it is, I will remove EVERYTHING IMMEDIATELY!!!

I still like to have my hand held while we walk. I still LOVE to share subtle touches and sweet kisses, but you should not expect them immediately. I am not a machine, nor am I a dog.

Please respect your significant other by remembering they may very well like the gushy stuff sometimes too...

NSFW Sex and Sexuality

Sex.

I can't find release. I have an adequate partner but no release or relief comes to me. I want him to spank me. I want him to shove me to the bed or up against the wall and pound into me. I want him to tie me down and have his wicked way. I want him to use his strength and bend and mold me how he wants me. I want him to wake me in the middle of the night by pushing into me hard. I want his hands rough and purposeful all over my body. I want him to command and control my body. I need him to be aggressive and violent. What's wrong with me??!?!??

I love his affection. I love when he holds me. I love his sweet kisses and soft caresses. I love when he takes me soft and slow. I love everything about the gentle way he touches and cares for me.

But, sometimes, I need him to fuck me and fuck me hard.

Is that wrong?? Will that finally get me to my release?? I imagine the rough and naughty things he could do to me and I can find it... But will his actions take me there?? Will there ever be a time for me to just..... Come??



Sexuality.

Why must it be so defined?

Do you know our society stresses so much over "gay", "straight", "bi", blahblahblabblittyblah!!

Here's the deal...

I am very aware of my sexuality. I am aware of my sensuality as well. Why do I have to wear a label of my sexual orientation?? What does it matter, and to whom?!? I am attracted to attributes of a person. I'm not attracted to their chromosomal makeup!

Man or woman, transgender or transvestite, I don't really care what you chose.

Love does not have restrictions, so why must we continuously attempt to bind it to such frivolous ideals? Sure you can blame it on religion, but think of it this way... why would a God that is so great and so awesome create so many beings with open-hearts, open-minds, and loving bodies? If it is such an abomination to love openly, why did God make us so?? Why is it that you think your fear and your naivety gives you the right, nay duty, to curse and belittle others?

Maybe we should all take a reality check and figure out what the true meaning of love is....

Might just be shocked at what you realize....