Day 4

Day 4

January 21, 2015

Miles: 698

Heartbreaks:  2 

So we found a real Texas treasure this morning.  A genuine Chuy's!!! 

 If you don't know Chuy's please come to Texas and I will be GLAD to introduce you!!

We made it to the far reaches of Texas... El Paso.... 

And, OF COURSE, we get to the desert and the damn snow comes to greet us.  So we are dropping anchor for a few days tol the snow passes us by... Bloody manic winter!!

Since we are here a few days, I'm getting some answers for a couple personal questions.  I like to have an outline of a plan for my future and this is the best way to do it.  

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I'm sad for my friend.  He and his girlf broke up tonight.  I'm sad I can't be there for either of them.  I'm sad they didn't feel like the other was their half, ya know?  I'm just sad.

  It makes me reflect on my relationships.

I feel quite foolish in mine.  I'm realizing I have masochistic tendencies that are actually making me physically ill.  I disgust myself with my obessive behavior.  But I guess that's what it means to be an addict. 

I read this article on huffington post (http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/6506936) today about the real causes of addiction.  It was an interesting read, and honestly, I don't think it was far off the mark.  Amazing how we can learn so much from just observing....

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So I've finally had my hot shower, tomorrow will be a day of answers and future planning.  Wish me luck.  I'll make it good either way, but still a little luck can go a long way.

Sleep sweet my angels.  I miss you.  I love you.  Goodnight!

Xx

P.S. Shopping list for tomorrow: boots to dance in and postcards!!! PX here I come!!