Day 17

Day 17

February 3, 2015

Miles: 2200 maybe?

Holy crap! I have to post these postcards!

I'm sorry y'all.  I still love you, I'm just a little daft about actually putting them in the post box. Remedy will come tomorrow.

So today started a little rough.

Lil woke me up at 05:30 to go outside. Turns out she is sick.  I think she drank that water from the hydrant/puddle yesterday.  Bless her, she's still not herself.

Then I get a snarky ass message that sounded more catty than anything and I had a good little melt down.  I thought I'd been doing well the last two weeks.  I rarely think about the hurt and pain.  I smile and laugh most days.  I don't cry all the time anymore.  And my stomach hasn't turned all day at the thoughts in my head.... Until this morning.

I know I'm the only one that can control my reactions and how much I let people effect me.  But the truth of the matter is I let too many people who don't matter effect me in ridiculous ways.  I don't know why I do that, but I'm learning this is a curve for me.  As I'm figuring out how to steer that curve, I'm removing myself from the situations as best I can.  I've already traveled 1900 miles away from the physical situation... But now I'll just have to remove my digital self as well.   

I have to admit, I allowed ridiculous comments to ruin my morning, and almost my whole day.  Thank goodness for my actual friends.... Always available to talk me from a ledge, and this situation(s) nearly pushes me over EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. 

But lunch time was a great reprieve from my nonsense.  DQ's childhood friend lives in Phoenix so we had lunch with her at CF.  They hadn't see each other in 43 years so it was fun watching them reconnect and listen to their silly stories from Old D-town.  This is friend number two for DQ on this trip and so far everyone is fantastic and so much fun!  I remembered to get photos this time!!! (As this is a public blog and she's a private person, I'll refrain from posting... But if you're blood--or damn near-- I'll email/text them if you'd like.)

Grumpy spent the day with the boys while we went to lunch.  Jo's two oldest are in town and so the four of them sat around and shot the shit.  When we came to pick him up, we got sucked into another hour or so of their stories and chatting.  It was pretty awesome.  I miss camaraderie like that.  I used to have a tangle of buddies that would come by or we'd meet up and just do the same.... I miss my friends.

Finally heading back to camp, Lil got sick again, so bless her heart she's been sticking by me since I cleaned her and Roo up.  I feel horrible she's so sick.  I've noticed she's been off a while now, but I can tell it's getting worse.  I'm kinda worried about her.  I don't want her to be anything but happy.  Maybe she'll be happier when we get back to what she knows....

That being said, I get to see my friend number 2 (and 3 for that matter) as soon as this weekend if we want!! CAL-I-FORN-I-A here we come!!  I've missed my Marine and canNOT wait to see him!!! Lil will be so excited, she loves him so much.  It'll be really wonderful! I know it!!

So tomorrow is Grumpy's birthday so we are letting him do pretty much whatever he wants, within reason.  This should be interesting... Ha!!

I'm gonna listen to the radio we've decided to leave on and the coyotes howling (just about 50m from my window) outside and get some sleep.

I miss you even when I shouldn't.

I love you, even if you don't deserve it.

Goodnight.

Xx

P.S. Outfit totally worked today!  Here's an "eh" photo.  My photographer really doesn't understand the concept of zooming in or focusing. le sigh