Day 32

Day 32

February 18, 2015

Miles: 4071

As much as it breaks my heart, I had to do a little housekeeping today so I didn't get to enjoy the beach as much as I would have liked..

The high tide this morning was much needed!  I had forgotten how much I love everything about the ocean.  It's days like these last few where I almost lament not finishing my MARB and not going to school in Cali.... Almost lament.  I'm still proud of being an Aggie, no question.  And although I do miss my dolphins and whales, I'm so grateful for the experiences I had on main campus with my ENGL people!!

But man, have I missed the ocean...

I got to listen to the waves break all day.  That roar of the tide and the smell of the brine make my heart so much lighter.  I'm half tempted to move out here.  Sure, I'd miss my Texas but what can I say? That song of the Pac calls to me...

I've thought a lot about my life recently.  Reconnecting with old friends has me looking at the last 20 years with a more observant eye.  I realize how much I've alienated myself from those I care a lot for.  Even some I haven't spoken to in 10+ years, I still care a lot for them and realize we've missed out on so much in each other's lives.  I'm hoping this next step for me pans out the way I pray it does.  I need a reeducation on the way I treat myself and others.  I'm hoping this project will teach me about living life.

Speaking of projects, I cleaned the racks up today.  I reorganized a bit so the top rack is more open.  Roo proved his nickname when he hopped (yes, literally hopped) up to the top rack.  Now that's almost a 4' clearance and he had legs tucked and everything.  This was no scramble, he just leapt up there.  It was hilarious and amazing all at the same time.  I finally got Lil to get up there and stay (I kept picking her up and putting her up there, but she'd jump down... Damn dogs).  As long as she stays, Roo stays too.  So for the first night in 32 days, I am blogging from my own unobstructed bed.  The only things snuggling me at the moment are all these pillows.... It's kind of glorious.  I love my furry babies, but it's nice to have my own space without being kicked or shoved into the wall.  And I love that they have their own space and aren't kenneled.  Today is a major breakthrough on the anxiety thing for them.  Especially Roo... He's never slept without a human outside of his kennel.  I still may go get him a giant teddy bear like he slept on when he was a tiny baby.  Just so he has a snuggle buddy if Lil is cranky.

So, for the first night in a long time, I'm sleeping under my dogs but in my own space.  We will see how long this lasts tonight.

I miss seeing your face.

I love how you can make my smile through tears.

Goodnight!

Xx

P.S.  Here's a couple shots from this morning's high tide.