Day 28

Day 28

February 14, 2015

Warning:  I'm gonna swear a fuck-ton! And this shit is gonna get real heavy!

You've been notified.

Day 2-fuckin'-8

Miles: 3659

I'm fucking over everything.  I can't do any of this anymore.  If I hadn't screwed myself into this corner I'm currently in, I could have a flight to Texas tomorrow... Or bus fare... Or at least rent a car so I could save my furry babies from this goddamn nonsense as well!!!

I just don't understand why I ALWAYS get treated like this.  I don't deserve to be treated this way.  

~*~

I figured it out.

A lesser person would have walked away tonight and found the first bus away from that situation.  A lesser person would have told everyone to go to hell and bugged out months ago.  A lesser person would have never come in the first place.  

I get treated this way because I allow it.  I stay in this really shitty situation because that's what a decent person does.  A decent person tries to make a crappy situation better.  A decent person tries to make everyone happy.  A stupid person lets everyone berate and belittle her.  I'm tired of being stupid.  I'm tired of the verbal and emotional abuse.  I can't keep doing "the right things" when they aren't right for me.  It's time for other people clean up their own messes. It's time for other people to deal with their own shit.  

Now that my lovely afternoon drive through LA has been completely spotted by poor behavior, I can't even really tell you every thing I saw and where I went.

I know I drove through Brover's old neighborhood, passed by the tar pits, the theaters, La Cienega, down Wilshire, up Sunset, and glimpsed the Hollywood hills sign.  I sat in a lot of traffic, drove through Santa Monica and parts of Malibu, then went through the Malibu Canyon tunnel, which is kinda awesome since half of it is just mountain for a ceiling....

Then shit hit the fan and the rest of the night has pretty much outweighed the fun of my afternoon.

Marine and BBaer are wonderful for listening to my vent.  I'm sorry I laid that on y'all.  I have a lot of stuff to figure out for me.  And I know I'll have Marine and BBaer to watch my six.

Sleep well everyone.

I don't know the meaning of love, I thought I did.

I can't miss what I never really had, right?

Goodnight.

Xx